The view from my perch on the mountain

M.I.A.

I haven’t been blogging or even online much the past week or so and I think I owe those of you who follow me an explanation. In 2005 I took a bad fall at home which eventually led to surgery and a partially successful fusion of my lumbar spine. Post surgery I spent a year in a body brace 23 1/2 hours a day (I could take it off for showers), sleeping in a recliner while undergoing physical therapy three times a week.

The pay off was learning that the fusion healed improperly. My physical limitations and chronic pain meant I had to retire early. That was the worst part of the whole experience for me; going from working 60 to 70 hours a week to staying home and looking for something to do.

The financial hit my family took with my disability pension only amounting to about 33% of what I had been earning was bad enough but the mind numbing boredom was the worst part for me. Looking for something to occupy my time I decided to give photography a try. A web search for information about photography led me to Windows Live Spaces. I met a lot of great people including many photographers, both amateur and pro, who generously shared their expertise and took me under their wings. That’s when I started blogging and I’ve been at it pretty much non-stop ever since.Since Spaces bit the dust and I moved to Blogger and Word Press I’ve met even more wonderful people and that includes all of you..

There is another aspect of my injuries which I have to deal with from time to time. Occasionally bouts of depression set in. This is one of those times.

I lose interest in just about everything. In fact, my cameras haven’t been out of the bag in at least a week and I’ve spent more time staring at the idiot box than online.

My family have always been my rock especially during the periods of irritability and flashes of temper. How they put up with my temper and mood swings is beyond me but they do and I’m blessed to have their support. Most importantly they make sure I take my meds and mostly leave me alone until I snap out of it which is best for everyone concerned.

We’re going home for a visit thee end of next week and I know that will do wonders for me. One of the first things I do when we go home, after unloading the car, is head for the beach I grew up on. The sand between my toes, salt air and gentle hiss as the waves kiss the sand is more therapeutic than all the drugs I’ve been prescribed.

Sunset on the Rocks

I can’t begin to tell you how much I appreciate all of you who have sent messages asking if I was okay. I’m not but I am getting there. If nothing else, sitting on the beach next weekend watching sunsets like this will recharge my soul. As always, pictures to follow.

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12 responses

  1. Chip Im sorry to hear your not feeling well, like you i have not been around much as things have been going on here too
    I hope you have a wonderful trip home, and that the sea and beach lift your soul,
    Thinking of you and your family,
    Take care
    sue

    April 2, 2012 at 8:29 PM

  2. I’ve prayed for you a few times, but haven’t done so regularly. I’ll try to do better. Enjoy your trip home (as if you need told to)!

    April 2, 2012 at 8:44 PM

  3. Hello Again.. I sure hope you have a blessed and wonderful time back home on the beach. May it restore your soul and give you
    peace and strength. Something about the water and always restores me so. God Bless you and the family. Safe Travels my friend!! : )

    April 2, 2012 at 8:50 PM

  4. Chatter Master

    I’m glad you know what will make you feel better, and that you’re heading there. I wish you well on your journey to health and happiness. God bless!

    April 2, 2012 at 9:21 PM

  5. It’s good to see you up and about again,Chip…was a little concerned…the beach next weekend sounds beautiful!! Hope all’s right as rain with you soon…love, Katie.

    April 2, 2012 at 9:43 PM

  6. Hang in there Chip. I do thoroughly enjoy your posts and am so glad you found enjoyment with sharing nature, birds and insight with us all. Embrace your trip home and let it totally recharge you! Be safe.

    April 3, 2012 at 9:45 AM

  7. I am sure based on scientific research that a restorative trip to the beach, the place you love so much will help you in ways you might not have thought of, based on the saturation of negative ions found in such places. Besides the glorious sunlight and beautiful landscapes, sounds of the birds and the surf. Very soothing! Lower levels of negative ions are found indoors and in heated rooms.

    Keeping you and Frankie in my prayers.

    April 3, 2012 at 10:03 AM

  8. I missed you … but then I’ve been away a lot too …. I’m so glad that you have a chance to swap the TV for the beach … a far better visual channel!!! Depression is a beast … and pain so debilitating … my thoughts are with you as you face these two beasts 24/7 …. and with Frankie who has the love to keep you moving forward … a reason to find a smile …. if ever it all feels to much, imagine what it would have been like if you were facing all this alone?!

    Then, as a wise man once said to me when everything seemed to be just too much … “Do something for somebody …. FAST” it has amazing curative powers!

    Sending you waves of warm feelings …. xxxx

    April 3, 2012 at 1:06 PM

  9. i understand completely. most of my family deals with chronic depression, and i seem to be the only one who doesnt. just the occassional situational kind. much more easily over come. i will be praying for you, because i believe we can be healed and set right from anything. even brain chemicals that go all sideways. thats my stand.
    have fun on the beach! i know exactly what you mean about that!
    k☼

    April 3, 2012 at 2:34 PM

  10. Good to hear from you but sorry to hear you’re having such a rough ride right now…I wasn’t sure if I’d just missed a lot of posts or you hadn’t been here, as I’ve only just come back myself – long and complicated reasons but was a paws breath away from jacking-in the whole blogging thing. It was awesome guys like you that changed my mind and pulled me back from the edge. Wolfie life would be sadly lacking without friends such as yourself in it 🙂 Several members of my immediate family have battled with depression for many years and it is an on-going problem for my best friend, though it’s part of a wider medical condition. I’ve escaped that particular issue but I know how difficult and utterly soul-destroying at times it is, for those close to me who do have to go through it, and there’s a limit as to how effective medication can be for them. My best friend also experiences mood swings and flashes of temper but I understand that he can’t help it at those times and though it’s not much fun to be on the receiving end of you battle through it together just like you and your family. It’s a dark tunnel while you’re going through it but you’ll come out the other end…hang in there, go with the flow and remember we all love you lots no matter what 🙂 Wolfie hugs x

    April 3, 2012 at 6:38 PM

  11. Well I have wondered where you were; thought maybe I’d put you off with my response to the Trayvon post. Sorry you have been on the downside, I am sure a trip home and to the beach will be the perfect medicine to get you on the upswing! Be good to yourself, pick up the camera again and focus through the lens! Someone once said to me, your focus is your reality. Hugs and hopes for happiness to you and your family!
    Safe travels and see you real soon 🙂

    April 4, 2012 at 12:00 PM

  12. The voice of the ocean is always a healer. Have a wonderful time, Chip.

    April 5, 2012 at 5:43 PM

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